Tag Archives: depression

I’m Tired of Distractions

I’m tired of distractions I’ve tried them all Watching TV Scrolling Facebook Playing guitar Going for a walk Having a bath But the knife beckons from my chair-side table Inviting Enticing Why don’t I put it away? Because it calls … Continue reading

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Head Heavy

Head so heavy It hangs Or rests upon the pillow   I’m depressed. No energy for anything. Spending a lot of time just lying in my bed. Even the things that I’m supposed to do to cheer myself up are … Continue reading

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Pain All Day

On Wednesday I was in pain all day. Not physical pain, but mental pain. It’s so hard to describe, we don’t have the vocabulary for it in Enlgish. It is something like a combination of despair, loneliness, anxiety and depression. … Continue reading

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After the excitement

After the extreme and intense experience that is appearing at the Edinburgh Fringe I was expecting to get depressed. I started taking 1/2mg of Risperidone just in case. But it has not just been depression that has come upon me … Continue reading

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My Mood has come down

My happy, hypomanic, mood has fallen. I no longer have so much bounce and energy. No sign of psychosis at the moment either. I fear I will fall into depression now. If that gets mixed up with psychosis I could be … Continue reading

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Some days are hard

I woke in the middle of the night to a bad dream. It left me lying in bed feeling unhappy. By half-past five I was desperate. I put on some trainers and headed out for a naked run – but … Continue reading

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Expressing myself

Someone pointed me to an interesting article here I have been struggling lately. Feeling lonely. Wanting attention. Suffering from twitching, strange behaviour, shaking, crying. And yet, when I am performing my shows, which I was in August. I didn’t have … Continue reading

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