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Too Much Stress

I applied for something called PIP (Personal Independent Payments) last July. It’s a benefit for people with disabilities and I consider myself to have a disability with my Schizo-affective Disorder. Well, the decision came back in October that I wouldn’t … Continue reading

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Opening the Mail

I get scared by letters that come in the post. I tend to leave them at the bottom of the stairs, sometimes for days. Today I thought I’d try opening all the outstanding letters, but it is hard. I put … Continue reading

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Pain All Day

On Wednesday I was in pain all day. Not physical pain, but mental pain. It’s so hard to describe, we don’t have the vocabulary for it in Enlgish. It is something like a combination of despair, loneliness, anxiety and depression. … Continue reading

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I Feel Fragile

Fragile A butterfly’s wing A chocolate space-hopper A house of playing cards on a rickety table A matchstick model of the Burj Khalifa, in a bouncy castle A Ming vase teetering on the edge of its pedestal as a herd … Continue reading

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Variable condition

My condition is quite variable at the moment. Monday I was creative and wrote a couple of poems, I didn’t leave the house, but not because I didn’t want to – I just didn’t have anything planned. Yesterday (Tuesday) I … Continue reading

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Anxiety and depression

Since my assessment for PIP is have been down. I have been worrying a lot and getting anxious over things I normally cope with. For instance, in the bank, waiting for a teller to come free, I wanted to run … Continue reading

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Took no Meds

I took no meds today. It was an experiment to see how I got on. I have been taking only half a milligram of Risperidone anyway and I thought that stopping altogether would not be a big deal. It didn’t … Continue reading

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