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Head Heavy

Head so heavy It hangs Or rests upon the pillow   I’m depressed. No energy for anything. Spending a lot of time just lying in my bed. Even the things that I’m supposed to do to cheer myself up are … Continue reading

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Opening the Mail

I get scared by letters that come in the post. I tend to leave them at the bottom of the stairs, sometimes for days. Today I thought I’d try opening all the outstanding letters, but it is hard. I put … Continue reading

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Pain All Day

On Wednesday I was in pain all day. Not physical pain, but mental pain. It’s so hard to describe, we don’t have the vocabulary for it in Enlgish. It is something like a combination of despair, loneliness, anxiety and depression. … Continue reading

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I Feel Fragile

Fragile A butterfly’s wing A chocolate space-hopper A house of playing cards on a rickety table A matchstick model of the Burj Khalifa, in a bouncy castle A Ming vase teetering on the edge of its pedestal as a herd … Continue reading

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Electricity Bill Stress

I only changed over to the company that suppplies my electricity at the end of September. They use some weird system whereby they charge me the same amount each month and the total adds up to the amount equal to … Continue reading

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How Does it Feel to be Mad?

Yesterday I was hypomanic, or possibly real manic, or maybe a bit psychotic. Whichever it is, I was proper mad. In the afternoon I was working on tidying the studio, but I had in my mind that I was going … Continue reading

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Altered Minds, Altered Realities

I am doing a show on mental health called Altered Minds, Altered Realities as part of Camden Fringe. I have schizoaffective disorder and I wanted to show people what it’s like to struggle through life with mental difficulties, and to … Continue reading

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