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About augustusnds

I did the normal things people do - worked in an office, bought a house, fell in love, but my love would not marry me, she left me. After this it all spiralled out of control, went mad and ended up in hospital, more than once. So I changed tack, gave up the day job and became an entertaininer: writing, producing and performing my own one-person-shows as well as songs, poems and videos. To see some of what I do look at www.augustusemperors.com And I search for a way to be happy in a world that doesn't understand me, as you can see in some of my blogs.

New Christmas Single

Sometimes the gods of mental illness bugger off and allow me to be creative. Well this holiday season I have created a Christmas single. It’s called ‘It’s Christmas Time Me Boys’ and has a new slant on the season, being … Continue reading

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The Great Escape

The Great Escape I was locked away in the nuthouse on a section for my sins I’d been too wild and dangerous so I was held in the loony-bin I knew that I must be there yet I wanted to … Continue reading

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I’m Tired of Distractions

I’m tired of distractions I’ve tried them all Watching TV Scrolling Facebook Playing guitar Going for a walk Having a bath But the knife beckons from my chair-side table Inviting Enticing Why don’t I put it away? Because it calls … Continue reading

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Head Heavy

Head so heavy It hangs Or rests upon the pillow   I’m depressed. No energy for anything. Spending a lot of time just lying in my bed. Even the things that I’m supposed to do to cheer myself up are … Continue reading

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Running Away to Brighton

Work means stress, and eventually it became too much for me. On the morning of 7th August 2018 I woke at about 3:00am and was suddenly excited. I felt wide awake and full of beans. I had an idea. I … Continue reading

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I Think I’m Cracking Up

I feel under constant pressure at the moment, what with money worries and other stuff. I think the stress is making me crack up. Last night, on the way home, I was thinking of taking my trousers off as I … Continue reading

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New video ‘The Naked Spaceman’

I can’t do a proper job because I can’t stand the stress, but I do work away at my creative activities – writing and performing plays and songs. Well, now I have created a video for my most popular song … Continue reading

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Too Much Stress

I applied for something called PIP (Personal Independent Payments) last July. It’s a benefit for people with disabilities and I consider myself to have a disability with my Schizo-affective Disorder. Well, the decision came back in October that I wouldn’t … Continue reading

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Opening the Mail

I get scared by letters that come in the post. I tend to leave them at the bottom of the stairs, sometimes for days. Today I thought I’d try opening all the outstanding letters, but it is hard. I put … Continue reading

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Pain All Day

On Wednesday I was in pain all day. Not physical pain, but mental pain. It’s so hard to describe, we don’t have the vocabulary for it in Enlgish. It is something like a combination of despair, loneliness, anxiety and depression. … Continue reading

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