I have been hypomanic all day Thursday. Managed to calm down by going out and playing board games, but I was a bit aggressive.
Then I got home at my usual bed-time and I felt happy and interested in a project of Self harm. So I assembled the tools necessary and had a good go at myself. Spent quite some time working at this, though did nothing severe that required going to hospital. Did some first aid and lay down to sleep, tired and happy.
Woke up at 1a.m. feeling similar. Wanting to do some crazy stuff. Tried breaking a cup, but it stubbornly refused. Toyed with the idea of going on a breaking spree in the town, but it is so cold out, and raining.
So I started on a new project to get blood for writing in my Holy Book. I did so and wrote in my Holy Book.
Now, this seems more than just hypomania, this might be mania (which I’ve never had) or it might be psychosis. Either way, I should call the CMHT (Community Mental Health Team) who know about me and might help me. But if it’s just hypomania, it’s not worth it as they won’t do anything.
And yet, I’m enjoying myself. 🙂