Monthly Archives: February 2015

So Tired of Wanting

In the Indian restaurant tonight I sort of explained what I need. And I wish I hadn’t. It just brings it to the surface. I have lived 20 years out of the last 22 alone. I cannot stand it. I … Continue reading

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My Mood has come down

My happy, hypomanic, mood has fallen. I no longer have so much bounce and energy. No sign of psychosis at the moment either. I fearĀ I will fall into depression now. If that gets mixed up with psychosis I could be … Continue reading

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I might be in trouble

I have been hypomanic all day Thursday. Managed to calm down by going out and playing board games, but I was a bit aggressive. Then I got home at my usual bed-time and I felt happy and interested in a … Continue reading

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Got my mojo back – but is it hypomania

At last I am over my physical illness. I actually expended more effort on Thursday than I needed to, which is how I like to be, pushing myself. But today… Today I word sandals and not socks – which is … Continue reading

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Mind starting to misbehave again

While I was physically ill during December and January I was not troubled by wild emotions or wild thoughts. I think perhaps the illness and the pain that I was dealing with somehow took too much effort or attention in … Continue reading

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I am Starting a New Religion

I am a philosopher. I told this to a psychiatrist and I think he thought I was delusional, but I AM! I look for the meaning of life, for the answers to big questions like ‘who am I?’ and ‘what … Continue reading

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