Monthly Archives: November 2014

Sometimes I’m amazed I’m not in hospital

Things in my life just aren’t turning out at the moment. Nothing seems to have gone right since August. I keep finding myself in despair. Sometimes literally shaking from misery and fear. Often contemplating self-harm, often contemplating going out and … Continue reading

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Some days are hard

I woke in the middle of the night to a bad dream. It left me lying in bed feeling unhappy. By half-past five I was desperate. I put on some trainers and headed out for a naked run – but … Continue reading

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Sad news

I learnt that someone I know from an online forum I use has died. This is sad. She was a kind, caring, funny person who helped a lot of people and cheered me up a few times. It is amazing … Continue reading

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Oh, how it changes

On Thursday I was so calm and emotionless But I have schizoaffective disorder, and no emotional state lasts for long. By Friday evening I was a nervous wreck, shaking like a leaf and a thousand miles from calm. And so … Continue reading

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