Monthly Archives: October 2014

Not caring

I meditated¬†every day for¬†5 years. I wanted it to help me, to make me happier, make me better. It didn’t work And according to the teachers it wouldn’t work – because I DESIRED these things – and meditation is about … Continue reading

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Wild Night last night

I walked home from my club and it was windy, but I was feeling good, listening to Gary Numan. But… The meeting hadn’t satisfied my need for love and attention. I needed more. I felt unloved. I took off my … Continue reading

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Expressing myself

Someone pointed me to an interesting article here I have been struggling lately. Feeling lonely. Wanting attention. Suffering from twitching, strange behaviour, shaking, crying. And yet, when I am performing my shows, which I was in August. I didn’t have … Continue reading

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