Monthly Archives: September 2013

A new persona

So yesterday my mood was mostly OK, but sometimes a bit anxious Mother took us all out for a dinner in a pub and I was not my usual chatty self, felt anxious. I was very tired when I got … Continue reading

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An Excess of Rationality

When I am disturbed in my mind I try to rid myself of anything that makes me uncomfortable. So I take my clothes off, because wearing them makes me feel unnatural, strange, not myself. Wearing clothes is unnatural for a … Continue reading

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Wild Night

…so I went to the pub Walking along I was cold and wrapped up in myself. Not moving my left arm at all. Then I suddenly changed No longer cold, relaxed my shoulders, confident It was Nero (Nero is my … Continue reading

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Anxiety

I went to the cafe run by MIND for people with MH difficulties. Usually this is a positive experience, it helps to be with people, to chat. But on this occasion it was the opposite. There were lots of people … Continue reading

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What are thoughts?

Walking home I was aware of thoughts in my mind, sentences constructed from words with ideas of what to do, what not to do.I decided I didn’t want to listen to this anymore – that it isn’t ME but just … Continue reading

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Pre Frontal Cortex

Some argue that the pre-frontal cortex of the brain is where our capacity to judge future actions is located. Our ability to anticipate outcomes and therefore the seat of rational behaviour. It takes up to the age of 25 for … Continue reading

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Preparing for Hospital

I woke up this morning with a strong feeling that I have healing powers. But I have to be naked for them to work I could not bring myself to put on any clothes I felt calm I forced myself … Continue reading

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London

I went to London yesterday. I don’t think I would have gone if I hadn’t bought tickets for an exhibition and a show a couple of months ago. I felt fairly relaxed travelling down on the train. I’ve done that … Continue reading

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Left side / Right side

Yesterday I woke to find that the left hand side of my face was behaving strangely. The mouth was turned down and when I talked it was with only the right side of my mouth. This behaviour came and went … Continue reading

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A Fragile Day

Been using the internet, watching TV, reading the paper. But when I stop doing these things I soon descend into shakiness, despair, anger. Just deciding what to have for tea put me into such a frustration that I was shaking. … Continue reading

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